I had been raised Catholic, but I wasn’t sure if that was where I
fit in. I was (and still am) very open minded. I read Siddhartha by Hermann
Hesse, The Bhagavad Gita, Tao Te Ching by Lao Tzu (Jane English
and Gia-Fu Feng), Sacred and the
Profane by Mircea Eliade, and The
Idea of the Holy by Rudolf Otto. I should note here, that I do not like
reading very much. I studied religious buildings, modern and ancient. I lived
in Italy for several months and saw many houses of worship; St. Peters,
Pantheon, and countless other Catholic Churches. I even went to see the Pope
speak at the Vatican. Between the ages of 16 and 23 I tried to get the most
information I possibly could about different religions.
I met an amazing married couple while playing intramural
volleyball in college. They were so nice and sweet and I just felt like I
wanted to get to know them. So how do you get to know people in the 21st
century? I sent them Facebook friend requests.
Under the “About me” section I saw a link to www.bahai.org. I thought to myself,
“What is this religion? I have never heard of it before!” As I read through the
main principles I just kept nodding my head and asking, “Did someone read my
mind and create a religion just for me?” Of course I messaged them inquiring
about the Faith telling them I was interested in learning more about it.
After making these new Baha’i friends, I started going to
devotionals with them and I ordered books about the history of the Faith and
basic principles. I read Thief in the
Night and Half-Inch Prophecy
by William Sears, and Christ and
Baha’u’llah by George Townsend. Everything made sense . . . . I read it
with an open mind and never doubted or questioned the “proof” Sears was giving
me. Throughout this time I had been attending devotionals with my friends. I
also joined a [study group for] Ruhi book 1 [on “Reflections on the Ife of the Spirit”];
there I made more amazing Baha’i friends.
I had been searching to feel closer to
God. I
thought maybe I should practice Buddhism, or maybe Hinduism. It wasn’t until I
learned about the Baha’i Faith (through Facebook, ha!) that I really felt like
I had found my home. I am a Christian, I am a Buddhist, and I am a Hindu. I’m
all of those things because I am a Baha’i.
It took me quite a while to declare. Coming from a Catholic
family, I had struggles with my family because they did not and still do not
understand the Baha’i Faith. It was a big, scary thing to them. I explained the
main principles to my parents who were receptive and agreed “How could you
disagree with any of those?” They were skeptical of everything beyond the main
principles. They didn’t understand how I could still believe in Jesus when I
believed in Baha’u’llah. Yet, they do understand that I am an adult and they
can’t force their beliefs on me. I am sure this will be a struggle for a while,
but I’m optimistic.
My biggest concern was that I didn’t understand what “declaring”
meant and what the point of it was. I kept studying, reading, praying and was
involved in some Baha’i activities, so what is this card for? I realized, I
already am a Baha’i… ‘Abdu’l-Bahá said: “To be a Bahá’í simply means to love
all the world; to love humanity and try to serve it; to work for universal
peace and universal brotherhood.” How many Baha’is must there be that don’t
know it yet? To register yourself as a Baha’i (at this time) you declare your
belief in Baha’u’llah as the Manifestation of God for this age. I had
believed in Baha’u’llah for over a year, and had been living a “mostly” Baha’i
life for years. I realized to declare was in one sense a big deal but in
another sense not a big deal at all because I already was Baha’i. I wanted to
be more involved so for me it made sense to declare. While talking with a
member of the [local spiritual assembly] I learned that it is okay to declare
being a Baha’i without knowing all the “rules”. No one is perfect and we are
all learning. If I waited until I was the “perfect Baha’i” to sign my card I
would never sign it!
This part is silly, but I waited until 9/19 to sign my card so my
Baha’i-versary would be 9/19. I figured I already waited this long to sign it,
what is a few more days?
Next, Baha’u’llah sent me a sign. The same day I declared that I
was a Baha’i, I was at an event through my work. A woman randomly sat down next
to me and introduced herself. She looked like she has a similar cultural
background to me, but her name was unusual, so I asked her about it and she
told me she is Baha’i. I was thinking, “You have got to be kidding me!” What
are the odds to meet a female Baha’i in the same (traditionally male industry),
the DAY I declared! What a confirmation.
Amen."